Saturday, August 05, 2006

Maybe someday We'll Laugh

Last Wednesday Todd from the Lester Senior Housing facility called my mother to say that a two bedroom apartment had become available and did she want it? She immediately called me to say that I should call Todd to find out what he wanted.
“Mom”, I said, “You know what he wants. He wants to know if you want to move into the complex.”
“Just call him. I couldn’t talk to him.”

We have been on the waiting list a this lovely independent living apartment house for almost a year. We were told that they never know when an apartment would be available until the last minute. This means that when someone dies they find someone on the list to take their place. I called Todd and asked how fast we had to make up our minds. “Immediately!” He was adamant about that. “I have 90 people on the list and I’ve been making calls all day, but your mother is at the top so you get first crack.”
“That presents a bit of a problem”, I said. You see my mother’s phones are bad. It must have been the rain. So I can’t really discuss anything with her until I see her on Friday. Can you wait that long?”
“I’ll try, ”he answered. “But so many people want to be here I can’t make any guarantees.”

What I didn’t say was that I couldn’t talk to my mother because she wouldn’t put on her God Damn hearing aide. I didn’t want him to know that she was as deaf as she is stubborn. I called her back and said that I would be there on Friday and we could discuss it. She said,
“There’s nothing to discuss.” And hung up.

Neither my mother nor any of her sisters ever said goodbye before they hung up so this was not unusual. But I was curious about what there wasn’t to discuss. I called back.
“Okay mom” I said trying not to seem too interested, “What aren’t we going to discuss and why?”
“Nothing, I’m not going anywhere.” She hung up again.

There is hardly a baby boomer alive who is not dealing with parent problems. ( Those involving mothers and daughters are particularly complex). It’s a new phenomenon because our grandparents died before they got old enough to make our parents miserable. But thanks to the wonder of new drugs and advanced technologies, our parents are alive and well… around. There are those of us have to deal with parents who are sick, have Alzheimer’s, are disabled, or just fragile. Some of our parents are well enough to be independent but not alone. A few of us chose to be older parents so we’re sandwiched between demands from our children and their grandparents. Each requiring inordinate attention, emotional dependence and financial resources. The situations are endless and vary, and Like Vietnam , they unite us as a generation, and are universally not good.

My mother had seven sisters and a brother. Only her twin is still alive. They will be 86 in October. When their parents got old and sick there were eight siblings to pitch in and make sure the quality of my grandparents last years were wonderful. In addition, when my aunts and uncles got old and sick they all took care of one another. No one ever went to any kind of an institution. That would have been as embarrassing and as unacceptable as eating in a restaurant on Thanksgiving. It just wasn’t done in our family. My mother has the same expectations but there is no one left to do everything she wants done. It wouldn’t matter. No matter how much is done, it is never enough.

When we arrived at her house on Friday, (I took David because he always takes off the edge), she was about to go to the beauty parlor. She does that every Friday no matter what the weather or her health. She has made some remarkable recoveries when her hair needed work. David and I did errands and waited until she got back to have the conversation about her living arrangements. It went something like this:
MOM: I am not going to Lester, it’s so far no one will come and see me.”
ME: It’s 4 miles from this house. Anyone who comes here will come there.”
MOM: No one comes now.
ME: Yes they do. You have neighbors and friends and Rosalie (a cousin).
MOM: I think I want to be in Boston.
ME: Why Boston? Aunt Peppy says that’s where she wants to go. (Peppy is her twin and she’s not going anywhere soon.)
MOM: Besides, I have people there. Sheila (a cousin), Seth (my son) and Jordan.
ME: Seth works, Sheila works, and Jordan is only there for two more years.
MOM: It doesn’t matter. I probably won’t live that long. I feel myself fading everyday. (Oh pleeeeease!)

You may not believe it’s possible but the dialogue degenerated from there. How can you have a positive conversation with anyone for whom everything is negative? In frustration I finally said, “Okay mom, you are capable of making your own decisions now, but if you choose not to do that, then when you aren’t capable, I will make decisions for you and you may not like the choices. Of course, she immediately assumed I would put her away in one of those store houses for the elderly. Aside from always thinking the worse she has never had any confidence in my judgment. We left without having resolved anything.

She called about ten minutes after we got back to NY. You may remember, from previous blobs, that my mother has had four companions in three months. Her latest, Prudence, is smart, caring loving and kind and will do whatever my mother asks.
“Prudence and I took a ride uptown to Victoria Mews. It was lovely.”
“Mom” I was aghast, “Pam and I went to look at Victoria Mews about a year ago and it’s an old age home for church going blue haired ladies. No one owns designer, yet alone discount designer.” (This was my way of saying there were no Jews.) “Why would you consider a very expensive old age home for Christians rather than Lester, where every person is your age and religion.”
“They have nice activities.”
“You do what you want,” I said short of screaming. “Let me know where you are and I’ll visit.”

The final conversation came fifteen minutes later when she called to say that she had phoned Lester Senior to see if she could look at their apartment. But I was neither happy nor satisfied. It’s been years of angst and ongoing bull doody. I don't want her to die, and she refuses to participate in having a life. But to tell you the truth, as I held the silent phone in my hand, all I could think of was five years ago when my fabulous friend Soozie, frenzied from a irrational encounter with her mentally failing mother called to say, “When I opened my eyes I had my hands around her throat and I was squeezing. I actually wanted to kill her but I didn’t so I know we’ll laugh about it someday.” (Grandma Fran remains alive and well at 96).

I only hope that we’re all alive to laugh about all of this someday. We’re just sayin…

1 comment:

Seven Star Hand said...

Verifiable proof that "Armageddon" has already begun…

Hello Iris, Dave, and all,

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The symbolism of seven years (tribulation, etc.) refers to seven 360-year cycles on the Hebrew calendar. Ezekiel 39.9 is referring to the 10th to 16th cycles inclusive, while the Apocalypse symbolizes the 11th cycle (second temple period) until now, the beginning of the 17th cycle (seventh angel/star/seal, etc.). Greece (Alexander the Great) conquered the Persian Empire and Judea during the 10th cycle and Rome did so again during the 11th cycle. Both Ezekiel and the Apocalypse are symbolizing an overlapping period of time that starts during ancient Judea and ends now. Gog refers to Greco-Romans (...from the "isles"), which means Magog is Eurasia and the "army" that besets "Israel" for seven "years" refers to the activities of the nations of the Greco-Roman/Vatican Empire over the previous two-plus millennia.

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Because these two storms arrived shortly after my August 11, 2005 (50th) birthday (read the Dead Sea Scroll 11Q13 in Appendix G, which also discusses Melchizedek and the prophesied Jubilee) and directly match other pivotal 11 and 17 data and events described in the first chapter of my book, I have delivered verifiable proof that this reality is based on thought, knowledge and wisdom. Activity, patterns, and results perceived in space-time are first framed and defined by inspirations, thoughts, and knowledge and influenced by the cause-and-effect system most commonly referred to as karma. Consequently, events and outcomes in the so-called physical universe are not random or wholly mechanistic and are verifiably influenced in ways that atheists, scientists, and members of the Faiths of Abraham have all scoffed at. Though mysticism is mostly a product of misinterpreted ancient wisdom symbology, many of its topics flow from ancient wisdom. Though containing allusions to the truth, its details and interpretations are wrong on many key points.

A prime example of the purposeful and synchronized symbolism of these events is seen in the opening paragraphs from my book excerpted below. Notice that the dates mentioned (August 11 and 17) directly match the numbers of hurricanes Katrina and Rita, and the time spans of the four Florida hurricanes match my birth year (‘55), and they were spaced 11 or a multiple-of-11 (22) days apart, directly matching my birthday and much other ancient prophecy and symbolism. Notice that my place of birth, Victoria Texas, is on the Gulf Coast. Following are the excerpted paragraphs:

Hello, my name is Lawrence William Page II. Many people know me as Buddy Page. At the release of the first edition of this book, I am a 50-year old African-American male, author, researcher, and former software engineer and entrepreneur. As you will come to understand as you read through this first book, I am also the long-expected Hebrew Messiah and Lion of the Tribe of Juda (Yehuda).

I was born August 11th (month of Leo the Lion), 1955 (Chinese year of the Sheep) in Victoria, Texas. Furthermore, the Grand Cross alignment and Solar Eclipse of August 11th, 1999 was my 44th birthday and the second Grand Cross alignment, just six days later on August 17th, 1999, was on my mother’s birthday.

As you can see from my date of birth, I was a newborn during the Chinese Year of the Sheep, astrologically marking me as a Lamb, and during the month of Leo, astrologically marking me as a Lion. My mother was also born during the month of August and under the sign of Leo, which further marks me as a lion’s whelp. I prove to you in the first chapter of this book–beyond disproof–that I am indeed the long-prophesied “Lion” of the tribe of Juda (Yehuda) the Root of David and the “Lamb.” I am the individual long symbolized as the Branch, the Stem, the Shoot and the Rod from the Stump of Jesse (King David’s father), as symbolized in the Hebrew Book of Isaiah, The Apocalypse, the Dead Sea Scrolls, and elsewhere. I am the reincarnated Teacher sought after in the “East” and by the ancient Hebrews who were headquartered at the outpost community of Damascus (Qumran), of Dead Sea Scrolls fame. I am the one called the Teacher of Righteousness by the Dead Sea Scrolls, whom the so-called Christian fathers have fraudulently recast as “Saint ‘James’, the Lord’s Brother.”

Remember, "I come as a thief..." ?

Read verse twelve of the Gospel of Thomas to understand who I am...

Even further enlightening, the Second Temple Period of ancient Israel was during the 11th 360-year cycle on the Hebrew calendar and we are now in the 6th year (5766/2005-6) of the 17th cycle. Notice the pivotal 11 and 17 numbers again? This and much other synchronized information serve as stunning and decisive proof of many things, and expose many lies told by all three faiths of Abraham, but most specifically by Christianity. Consequently, I have decisively proven, beyond any shadow of a doubt, that Jesus Christ and Christianity are blatant lies, false prophecy and purposeful deception in a manner that cannot easily be denied, regardless of your faith or other opinions.

Furthermore, the symbolism in the Apocalypse (a.k.a. Book of Revelation) of seven stars in my right hand and seven angels represent the very same above-mentioned seven astrological (360-year) cycles, i.e., the 11th through 17th inclusive. I prove this fact beyond any reasonable doubt in the first chapter of the book. Consequently, The Apocalypse verifiably symbolizes a specific span of time that began with the 11th cycle (Second Temple Period) and concludes now, at the beginning of the 17th cycle (End of Days, etc.).

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Consequently, I have demonstrated various things about the nature of this reality that dramatically disprove and/or clarify key assumptions of religion, mysticism, and science alike, while establishing the true meaning and purpose of long misinterpreted ancient wisdom and the symbolism used to model and encode it. Accordingly, I have proven that the symbolism evidenced in the canons of all three faiths of Abraham and other ancient sources is a very ancient and advanced philosophical technology that verifiably models foundational aspects of our existence in this universe. This is the mostly misunderstood body of ancient wisdom long referred to as the Philosophers’ Stone. It uses a large and ingeniously organized collection of physical universe images and concepts as data rich components (symbols) that are based on verifiable rules. It models and encodes an amazing amount of foundational wisdom about life, spirituality and the 11 dimensions of this universe, now verified by string theory. It is also the advanced encryption method used to encode (seal) Hebrew prophecies and wisdom texts.

These ancient prophecies and wisdom texts used advanced symbology to model fundamental wisdom, including future events and situations. A primary facet of ancient wisdom is numeric symbology. Later misinterpretations of this aspect of ancient wisdom resulted in numerology, which, though embodying allusions to certain wisdom, is mostly error prone and false doctrine. My decryption, documentation, and interpretation of ancient symbology, numeric symbolism, and key texts based on them, are now decisively validated.

Here is Wisdom...

Verifiable proof that Armageddon has begun…

Understanding the End Game of Armageddon